So that means, in turn, he probably doesn't really understand her stance on things. This... sucks. Wrath rubs her forehead. At least it's good that he believes what she's saying, because she is being sincere and honest. So there's that.
She huffs an exasperated sigh. "I don't understand anything any more." She doesn't know what to say to any of that, really. But at least... It doesn't sound like she's fucked up completely. Or that she's accidentally become a bad person.
He does have a question, at least, even if she doesn't have a good answer. She frowns. "I don't know. I'd have to talk to Orion about it. I haven't said anything to him." Well, not in the context of something potentially happening. Because North comes first. And it's not fair to start people even thinking about stuff if you don't know where things stand, it seems to her. Orion shouldn't have any expectations about North and what he'd say one way out another, because it wouldn't be fair to North. She's supposed to have his back. "And if someone wants something from me that I don't want to give, I just say no..." She's not entirely sure about the concern, really. Orion wouldn't do something bad. She trusts him.
"You and Orion are really different people," she finally says. It's the only answer she really has.
She shakes her head. "I didn't mean Orion, actually." Well, they're was the Orion being drunk and hanging in with her and Maine but... that's a thing she doesn't expect would repeat without specific invitation and probably would just complicate matters. "When Maine came out to the ranch after the riots ended, it was super late at night and no one else was up so he just slept in my bed after I got him cleaned up." She shrugs. "And I haven't bothered making him find his own room because... him being around makes me feel safe. Like when I always had Octavian's back on the Line."
Because she's not okay. Not after being chased so many times by compliance in so few days. "Nothing sexy at all," she clarifies, just to make sure it's clear. Then she wrinkles her nose. "And he snores like a fucking chain gun."
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She huffs an exasperated sigh. "I don't understand anything any more." She doesn't know what to say to any of that, really. But at least... It doesn't sound like she's fucked up completely. Or that she's accidentally become a bad person.
He does have a question, at least, even if she doesn't have a good answer. She frowns. "I don't know. I'd have to talk to Orion about it. I haven't said anything to him." Well, not in the context of something potentially happening. Because North comes first. And it's not fair to start people even thinking about stuff if you don't know where things stand, it seems to her. Orion shouldn't have any expectations about North and what he'd say one way out another, because it wouldn't be fair to North. She's supposed to have his back. "And if someone wants something from me that I don't want to give, I just say no..." She's not entirely sure about the concern, really. Orion wouldn't do something bad. She trusts him.
"You and Orion are really different people," she finally says. It's the only answer she really has.
She shakes her head. "I didn't mean Orion, actually." Well, they're was the Orion being drunk and hanging in with her and Maine but... that's a thing she doesn't expect would repeat without specific invitation and probably would just complicate matters. "When Maine came out to the ranch after the riots ended, it was super late at night and no one else was up so he just slept in my bed after I got him cleaned up." She shrugs. "And I haven't bothered making him find his own room because... him being around makes me feel safe. Like when I always had Octavian's back on the Line."
Because she's not okay. Not after being chased so many times by compliance in so few days. "Nothing sexy at all," she clarifies, just to make sure it's clear. Then she wrinkles her nose. "And he snores like a fucking chain gun."